It has been such a long time since I've never blog..
What I want to say is that I will just keep trying and keep trying, no matter how much I wept over it (yea, like an idiot), I will try till I get it. Perhaps, this is myself, having poor reaction and judgement. Laugh at me, laugh over it, whatever not, I'll be strong!
I really hate myself for taking such a long time to heal after some bad incident. I worry that I will whirl myself into the deep hole of depression again, and that hurts, seriously.
I hate failures but somehow this has been that trait with me. Yes, it will be a bother to face it, my fate maybe, and I need try to deal with it- happily. I must tell myself, the journey will be hard but eventually it will come to an end.
I will grow and live strong. Keep running on. (: You go girl!
Showing posts with label reflections. Show all posts
Showing posts with label reflections. Show all posts
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Friday, April 30, 2010
Happily bored...
(^.^)
The standard happy
When it's the double mundaneness...
8(^.^)8
The happy starts to have hairs!
When it's double the lameness...
___
8(^.^)8
~{ o }~
@ @
The happy has halo on her head! Plus wingsss.
TGIF everybody!!! :D Happiness is short and sweet!
The standard happy
When it's the double mundaneness...
8(^.^)8
The happy starts to have hairs!
When it's double the lameness...
___
8(^.^)8
~{ o }~
@ @
The happy has halo on her head! Plus wingsss.
TGIF everybody!!! :D Happiness is short and sweet!
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Cyclic existence
I wonder how long this idyllic lifestyle or rather, mentality can last.
I did feel like a carefree tai tai, when I'm yet tied down to anything. Did some reading of books in the library and went grocery shopping with mummy and daddy, to prepare for the steamboat. Anticipating for that day!
On a sad note, when the mountain tortoise crawled out of his homey shell, he realized the world out is not all sweet. And damn, while he just wants a serene and happy walk, he has to cross fingers to hope that no anonymous and strangers to piss him off.
After a day out, the home's best.
I did feel like a carefree tai tai, when I'm yet tied down to anything. Did some reading of books in the library and went grocery shopping with mummy and daddy, to prepare for the steamboat. Anticipating for that day!
On a sad note, when the mountain tortoise crawled out of his homey shell, he realized the world out is not all sweet. And damn, while he just wants a serene and happy walk, he has to cross fingers to hope that no anonymous and strangers to piss him off.
After a day out, the home's best.
Love,
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Another phase of life 2
Dear Shooting Star,
Mood: PISSED
Meeting unscrupulous people, these insignificant passing clouds can really be a pain in a neck. I'm not making a storm out of a teacup, but sometimes, their inconsiderate behavior is so nauseating. Does it matters if I didn't realize that I'm supposed to "thoughtfully" move my butt to the next empty seat so that your can fulfil your desire to sit together with your bf?
Pathetic soul she is when she is angry over a mere misunderstanding and her failure to ASK politely for me to move. How am I supposed to know that you two really really want to sit together? When you two are healthy emo teens and your alight is just about 5 stops from the place you were.
True enough, the disability to break the realization that phenomena are devoid of inherent existence causes her to be angry over such small matters. The seat is not forever yours. Like a wild beast who deems that place as its marked territory.
On a happy note, I could be employed! ><
Went to the agency to deal with some administrative matters and my, the female employees there are like dressing to go for clubbing! Short skirts, high heels and 'effortless' hairdo = unkempt oba-san hairstyle. While sauntering around, they are comparing their outfits. -.-*3
I shall be mastering the act of not smiling and glaring, for the right reasons. Just to fend off some anal freaks.
Mood: PISSED
Meeting unscrupulous people, these insignificant passing clouds can really be a pain in a neck. I'm not making a storm out of a teacup, but sometimes, their inconsiderate behavior is so nauseating. Does it matters if I didn't realize that I'm supposed to "thoughtfully" move my butt to the next empty seat so that your can fulfil your desire to sit together with your bf?
Pathetic soul she is when she is angry over a mere misunderstanding and her failure to ASK politely for me to move. How am I supposed to know that you two really really want to sit together? When you two are healthy emo teens and your alight is just about 5 stops from the place you were.
True enough, the disability to break the realization that phenomena are devoid of inherent existence causes her to be angry over such small matters. The seat is not forever yours. Like a wild beast who deems that place as its marked territory.
On a happy note, I could be employed! ><
Went to the agency to deal with some administrative matters and my, the female employees there are like dressing to go for clubbing! Short skirts, high heels and 'effortless' hairdo = unkempt oba-san hairstyle. While sauntering around, they are comparing their outfits. -.-*3
I shall be mastering the act of not smiling and glaring, for the right reasons. Just to fend off some anal freaks.
Love,
Heal
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Avatar!
Dear shooting star,
Went to watched Avatar and I cannot believe that my sister would think that the movie is boring. My reaction first was WHAT?!
Truly, while I wasn't any avid sci-fi movie goer, what touched me was the indirect narrating of the avarice of human nature in bits of the story. At the same time, I could sense a slight skepticism on the current 'war on terror' by America, when the humans relate the fight against the indigenous groups in the 'other world' as a fight on 'terror with terror'.
The movie also reflects the ever avariciousness of human beings. The never-ending desire to exploit and get anything that is even beyond their means. Sometimes, while we want to help others, have the thought in mind be that we would want to help out unconditionally or otherwise?
I might regret of the fact that the I would sometimes demand for the latter, since the practical world or rather, society moulds me to be that. Sadly, kindness does not beget kindness.
Hence, my new year's resolution is to help someone, irrespective of who they are, unconditionally. Be they- passing cloud or my friends; as long as I can be their listening ear, a helping hand.
Went to watched Avatar and I cannot believe that my sister would think that the movie is boring. My reaction first was WHAT?!
Truly, while I wasn't any avid sci-fi movie goer, what touched me was the indirect narrating of the avarice of human nature in bits of the story. At the same time, I could sense a slight skepticism on the current 'war on terror' by America, when the humans relate the fight against the indigenous groups in the 'other world' as a fight on 'terror with terror'.
The movie also reflects the ever avariciousness of human beings. The never-ending desire to exploit and get anything that is even beyond their means. Sometimes, while we want to help others, have the thought in mind be that we would want to help out unconditionally or otherwise?
I might regret of the fact that the I would sometimes demand for the latter, since the practical world or rather, society moulds me to be that. Sadly, kindness does not beget kindness.
Hence, my new year's resolution is to help someone, irrespective of who they are, unconditionally. Be they- passing cloud or my friends; as long as I can be their listening ear, a helping hand.
Love,
Heal
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